Naked...Vulnerable...Embracing the Unknown...Despite It All

Love is the most frightening feeling ever. Its the scariest experience in the world especially when you give your best to a person, you share your love with a person, you have faith in a person and they hurt you by not appreciating everything you are and everything you are not. The healing process and the course of re-establishing trust is a terrifying transition when you’re not completely sure if a person is capable of change. Regardless of that, you love them too much to let them go and you know they truly couldn’t have understood how much you loved them in the first place.

When we hurt, we hurt for every time we weren't appreciated. We hurt for every time we were cheated on and we were scared to trust again. We hurt for every time we were lied to and we were scared to listen again. We hurt for every time we believed in a person more than they believed in themselves and we were scared to believe again. We hurt for every time we gave more than someone else cared to and we were scared to give again. We hurt for every time our feelings were disregarded and we were scared to feel again. We hurt for every relationship where we wore the pants and we weren't the man. For every time we couldn't let go because we were afraid everything would fall apart and we were scared to submit. We hurt for every time our eyes observed them adore another, hurt masked as jealousy.

We hurt every time someone said they would but didn’t. We hurt for every time someone said they could but couldn’t. We hurt for every time a person said they wouldn’t but did. We hurt for every time we felt alone, were surrounded by people but were alone. We hurt for every tear we’ve cried that no one witnessed. We hurt for every time we gave of ourselves but emotions were deficient. We hurt for every time we were quiet but yelling within the very depths of a scorned soul; scared and hurt when that loveless expression is in your eyes that we've seen before. Hurt when that wounding tone is in your voice that you promised we'd hear no more.

In order to understand the pain, to comprehend our actions and the sentiments of our present, you must comprehend the disdained ghosts of our past ~ In order to assist us in healing in our future.

Tiffany Carr © 2011

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